I want my life back!!!

I came across my boiling point... wanting to get out of the world I'm into now... My heart shouts aloud!!! I want my life back!!! how can I turn back the hands of time? 9 years back? Can I? What if I laid back and made myself into thinking before I moved ahead... 9 years back? Where should I be? Am I going somewhere else aside from the place I'm into now?

Life, I did not take it lightly... If I had... I may not be in pain and worries... If I only listened, I could have done other options and made some good moves... and be on top of the situations, now. But I can never step back, I can only revert and alter but overall, it will not make any big difference. It will still be the same, painful and dark future...

One step forward, will make sudden move but not a great one... but better than being stucked. I can no longer win back my past, but I can make a difference for myself, maybe not now, but let's see tomorrow.

What to do?

Another day... Where is the perfect place to hibernate? I wish I could find one here... A few more days to wait and finally, FINALLY, this boredome will be gone... Can I make the countdown now?

At this very moment, I am missing my bebey... Even he likes to do things I really don't like, shall I say, I am getting used to it. Sometimes, we are making fun of those things coz he knows that I will just laugh at it. Shall I say, I don't have any choice or I made it my choice now? Shall I say, maturity has come? or Better to say, we are getting adjusted? Dapat lang siguro... 9 years it not as if we are only counting the days and years of our lives, we learned to treasure every single moment that we are together, whether it is good or bad... we now understand that it goes hand in hand.

Last night we had an argument on which church shall we go for our wedding. It's been few months and until now, he can't decide. And I felt that we are really running out of time (ganun kaarte dapat) hahaha... when will be the grand event? January 2008! Hahaha!!! But kidding aside, we have lots of preparation to make and it is only me who is doing the detailed task, man what to expect from them when wedding preparation is the topic. So what to do now? He wants me to make the wedding invitation and so we need to buy for the printer, so to follow; he wants to have the souvenir made from Singapore so as to have the Singapore touch (ano kaya? CHOPSTICS NA LANG! Wahhhh), so to follow; Entourage, eto malufet, "Yung anak ni ano, sino nga ba yun?" Hahahaha... Principal Sponsor, hmmm incomplete; to follow; Secondary Sponsors and others, checked; Church, Malate or UST, so to follow; Gowns etc, I already have a prospect, so checked?; Caterer and Venue, ahuh... I already have the prospect, so to follow?; What else? OMG ang dami pa! Wahhhhhh!!!!!! Okay, and so I need to impose! What to do??? I hate to cram but this guy takes thing lightly... Man, why you guys are like that? Hmmmpppp!!!

Wheew.... Last Day

Oh my... shall I say, at long last? I really don't know, mixed emotions... This place was a good working place before... but those people who made it good had all been gone... some are still here, and I will definitely miss them... not so easy to say my last words...but everything will come to its end, in time...

Dear friends, we'll still keep in touch, no matter how far will I go... you are always with me...promise!

Thanks for the joyous moment...i really enjoyed being with you... I will no longer mention your names, coz u all knew who you guys are..

Mwahhh!!!!!!!!!

What a day....

Tagal ng oras!!! Promise!... I really don't know why am I experiencing this kind of boredome... This is not easy at all, it's a type of disease that has no cure... the type of disease that will come and you won't even know when it will be gone... this is the time when I want to travel alone. Where? Yun ang mahirap.. I used to go to places na sa Pinas lang matatagpuan...so it's really impossible to do it now since I'm away from home. This is the time when I always wanted to contemplate and ask myself.. what's wrong with you? and this is the best time I would want to sleep the whole day...and after waking up, call my best buddy beki, to have some iced tea or frappuccino and talk about things that only best buddies would comprehend... As the night is still young, still we'll hang out and talk on so many things, which will lead us to fun chatting and to end it with a great relief. Sadly... she's miles a way from me... so what to do now? I guess, I need to find ways to conquer this feeling and stay missing my home, my secret place and my best buddy... I guess i just need to go to the gym later... get tired of the workout, take a cool and nice shower, drink my iced milo and sleep...and pray that tomorrow... boredome will be over...